Rest.

It's only 10:26am and already my body wants to sink back into my pillow top mattress and sleep for the rest of the day. I'm not too sure what's wrong with me...but do you think I made a doctor's appointment? No. Why? Because they will tell me what I know...slow down, rest, work out. Slowing down is difficult because I am so many things to so many people. Their "go-to", their "encouragement", their "comfort", their "best friend".  Resting!? My mind doesn't shut off at night. I lay in bed and think of everything that has to get done...and when i'll be able to get it done. Work out!? Oh right...running sounds REAL attractive with a headache and upset stomach...and with no sleep? (insert Texan accent) I ain't got no energy for that! The truth is, I have to stop making excuses and fix it. 

This quote came out of the book Crazy Love written by Frances Chan. GREAT BOOK. 

This is washing over my heart this morning...

"He loves it when we, gripped with doubt and fear that He will not be enough, turn the gaze of our souls to Him in hope. He loves to prove himself faithful and more than enough to satisfy our hungry souls. when we do turn to Him, our souls rest and we are saved. again. and again."

I feel like the Lord is revealing to me that I am taking control of my life. I'm the one who is trying to fix everyone and everything. I'm the one who has all the answers. I'm the one people are coming to because I have an answer for them. Yes, the Lord does give me words...but am I taking the place of God for people? Is that why i'm tired? Is that why i'm sick? My soul is exhausted because I haven't been pointing or turning to Him in way too long. It's time to take the back seat, time to humble myself before the cross and allow Him to take the reigns. My favorite scripture is from Zephaniah 3:17... 

"The Lord your God is with you; 

       the mighty One will save you.
    He will rejoice over you.
       You will rest in his love;
       he will sing and be joyful about you"

I know these are not just words in a leather bound book. I know this to be true. I MUST let Him love me, and that love directs and corrects. When I allow His love to win...I can rest in knowing that He is here.

I pray for your heart as well. To know and believe in His heart. Rest well, my friends...your body needs it too.