Monday, July 9, 2012

yep.


I have to be done. 



Proverbs 12:26 "One who is righteous is a guide to his neighbor, but the way of the wicked leads them astray."

Proverbs 13:20 "Whoever walks with the wise becomes wise, but the companion of fools will suffer harm."

Proverbs 14:6-7 "A scoffer seeks wisdom in vain, but knowledge is easy for a man of understanding. Leave the presence of a fool, for there you do not meet words of knowledge."

Proverbs 22:24-25 "Make no friendship with a man given to anger, nor go with a wrathful man, lest you learn his ways and entangle yourself in a snare."

1 Corinthians 15:33 "Do not be deceived: Bad company ruins good morals.”

2 Corinthians 6:14 "Do not be unequally yoked with unbelievers. For what partnership has righteousness with lawlessness? Or what fellowship has light with darkness?"

Proverbs 4:23 "Above all else, guard your heart, for everything you do flows from it."


Luke 6:45 "A good man brings good things out of the good stored up in his heart, and an evil man brings evil things out of the evil stored up in his heart. For the mouth speaks what the heart is full of"












Monday, May 7, 2012

PREGNANCY!

After a fun and exciting weekend in New York City, we found out that a baby beach was in the making!!


Today I am 8weeks 3 days pregnant! So for anyone who cares, and for me to look back on...i'll be posting updates/pictures...etc! Prayers please...this whole process is a little scary!


Pregnancy Survey- 
How far along? 8w 3daysTotal weight gain? Lost 7 lbs Maternity clothes? not yet, but ready for some!Stretch marks? Not yetSleep? I wake up to pee in the early mornings and have difficulty falling back asleep.Best moment this week? Finally getting to 8 weeks!Miss anything? Alcohol...my best friend had her bachelorette party/wedding this weekend. That was a bummerMovement? Not yet, way too early for that. Food cravings? Not really, but when I do crave something I better get or i'll get super cranky.Food aversions? All day. Queso makes me sick even thinking about it :( sad dayGender? Chris thinks girl, I think boy...too early to tell right nowLabor signs? NopeSymptoms? Tender breasts, gas, headaches, nausea, moody...Wedding rings on or off? OnBelly button in or out? InLooking forward to? My next appointment on May 31!

Monday, November 21, 2011

Worship

There are some days that my heart leaps at the thought of the Lord. I can confess...no, not every day..but some days. Today is one of those days...I just want to run screaming down the street "GOD IS GOOD" but I don't think that would encourage or direct anyone's attention to God...just to me, and they might think i'm on drugs, which in turn would be a stumbling block.. HOWEVER, I can write this silly little blog, post a few scriptures on my facebook and twitter, text a few friends and let them know i'm holding them up in prayer today. I can get on my face and laugh and cry and thank my heavenly Father...SO I WILL.

As I type this, I hurt for those who have never and will never experience this INCOMPARABLE and UNEXPLAINABLE joy. Close friends, close family, even church members...will miss this. Why? Well that's pretty simple actually. Pride. Fear. Doubts. Lust. Lies.

I use to wonder how some had so much joy for Christ and I didn't. It would piss me off, to be quite honest. Then one day someone told me, it wasn't God who was choosing not to reveal himself to me...but it was ME being too wrapped up in myself to allow Him to reveal himself to me... It was as if I was too concerned with watching my favorite movie, that I completely missed the BEST episode on TV. That episode won't be on hulu, I didn't record it, there will never be a re-run. It's done and gone. One day another episode like it will come, and it too will be the BEST, but I have to stop watching my "favorite movie" to see it. Silly comparison I know, but hopefully you get the picture.

Don't pass up another chance at joy created and designed specifically for YOU. Let God pour down His abundant love on you. Let Him bless you.

I promise it'll be the best thing you have ever experienced. Scout's honor!

Monday, October 31, 2011

Dad's

I was blessed with an AMAZING earthly Father. One who loves me deeply, prays for me constantly and catches me when I fall. Not everyone get to say this about their Father...It breaks my heart. So for all of you men out there, be this kind of Dad...and if you are not a man or won't be having children...pass this along. More people need to hear this...


50 Rules for Dads of Daughters 

By Michael Mitchell


1. Love her mom. Treat her mother with respect, honor, and a big heaping spoonful of public displays of affection. When she grows up, the odds are good she’ll fall in love with and marry someone who treats her much like you treated her mother. Good or bad, that’s just the way it is. I’d prefer good.
2. Always be there. Quality time doesn’t happen without quantity time. Hang out together for no other reason than just to be in each other’s presence. Be genuinely interested in the things that interest her. She needs her dad to be involved in her life at every stage. Don’t just sit idly by while she add years to her… add life to her years.
3. Save the day. She’ll grow up looking for a hero. It might as well be you. She’ll need you to come through for her over and over again throughout her life. Rise to the occasion. Red cape and blue tights optional.
4. Savor every moment you have together. Today she’s crawling around the house in diapers, tomorrow you’re handing her the keys to the car, and before you know it, you’re walking her down the aisle. Some day soon, hanging out with her old man won’t be the bees knees anymore. Life happens pretty fast. You better cherish it while you can.
5. Pray for her. Regularly. Passionately. Continually.
6. Buy her a glove and teach her to throw a baseball. Make her proud to throw like a girl… a girl with a wicked slider.
7. She will fight with her mother. Choose sides wisely.
8. Go ahead. Buy her those pearls.
9. Of course you look silly playing peek-a-boo. You should play anyway.
10. Enjoy the wonder of bath time.
11. There will come a day when she asks for a puppy. Don’t over think it. At least one time in her life, just say, “Yes.”
12. It’s never too early to start teaching her about money. She will still probably suck you dry as a teenager… and on her wedding day.
13. Make pancakes in the shape of her age for breakfast on her birthday. In a pinch, donuts with pink sprinkles and a candle will suffice.
14. Buy her a pair of Chucks as soon as she starts walking. She won’t always want to wear matching shoes with her old man.
15. Dance with her. Start when she’s a little girl or even when she’s a baby. Don’t wait ‘til her wedding day.
16. Take her fishing. She will probably squirm more than the worm on your hook. That’s OK.
17. Learn to say no. She may pitch a fit today, but someday you’ll both be glad you stuck to your guns.
18. Tell her she’s beautiful. Say it over and over again. Someday an animated movie or “beauty” magazine will try to convince her otherwise.
19. Teach her to change a flat. A tire without air need not be a major panic inducing event in her life. She’ll still call you crying the first time it happens.
20. Take her camping. Immerse her in the great outdoors. Watch her eyes fill with wonder the first time she sees the beauty of wide open spaces. Leave the iPod at home.
21. Let her hold the wheel. She will always remember when daddy let her drive.
22. She’s as smart as any boy. Make sure she knows that.
23. When she learns to give kisses, she will want to plant them all over your face. Encourage this practice.
24. Knowing how to eat sunflower seeds correctly will not help her get into a good college. Teach her anyway.
25. Letting her ride on your shoulders is pure magic. Do it now while you have a strong back and she’s still tiny.
26. It is in her nature to make music. It’s up to you to introduce her to the joy of socks on a wooden floor.
27. If there’s a lake near your home, take her there often. She will be drawn to the water like a duck to a puddle.
28. She will eagerly await your return home from work in the evenings. Don’t be late.
29. If her mom enrolls her in swim lessons, make sure you get in the pool too. Don’t be intimidated if there are no other dads there. It’s their loss.
30. Never miss her birthday. In ten years she won’t remember the present you gave her. She will remember if you weren’t there.
31. Teach her to roller skate. Watch her confidence soar.
32. Let her roll around in the grass. It’s good for her soul. It’s not bad for yours either.
33. Take her swimsuit shopping. Don’t be afraid to veto some of her choices, but resist the urge to buy her full-body beach pajamas.
34. Somewhere between the time she turns three and her sixth birthday, the odds are good that she will ask you to marry her. Let her down gently.
35. She’ll probably want to crawl in bed with you after a nightmare. This is a good thing
36. Few things in life are more comforting to a crying little girl than her father’s hand. Never forget this.
37. Introduce her to the swings at your local park. She’ll squeal for you to push her higher and faster. Her definition of “higher and faster” is probably not the same as yours. Keep that in mind.
38. When she’s a bit older, your definition of higher and faster will be a lot closer to hers. When that day comes, go ahead… give it all you’ve got.
39. Holding her upside down by the legs while she giggles and screams uncontrollably is great for your biceps. WARNING: She has no concept of muscle fatigue.
40. She might ask you to buy her a pony on her birthday. Unless you live on a farm, do not buy her a pony on her birthday. It’s OK to rent one though.
41. Take it easy on the presents for her birthday and Christmas. Instead, give her the gift of experiences you can share together.
42. Let her know she can always come home. No matter what.
43. Remember, just like a butterfly, she too will spread her wings and fly some day. Enjoy her caterpillar years.
44. Write her a handwritten letter every year on her birthday. Give them to her when she goes off to college, becomes a mother herself, or when you think she needs them most.
45. Learn to trust her. Gradually give her more freedom as she gets older. She will rise to the expectations you set for her.
46. When in doubt, trust your heart. She already does.
47. When your teenage daughter is upset, learning when to engage and when to back off will add years to YOUR life. If you succeed in doing this, tell me how.
48. Ice cream covers over a multitude of sins. Know her favorite flavor.
49. She will like boys. This day is coming soon. There’s nothing you can do to be ready for it. The sooner you accept this fact, the easier it will be.
50. Today she’s walking down the driveway to get on the school bus. Tomorrow she’s going off to college. Don’t blink.











Tuesday, October 25, 2011

Broken things need fixing

Today was one of those days that the moment you get out of bed, you wish you never had. I woke up at 5:30am to make my wonderful husband his breakfast and pack his lunch, took our sweet little doggie for a walk and then crawled back into bed. A few hours later, when I decided to check the time, realized I had slept through my second alarm!! Jumped in the shower and rushed to good ole San Jac to finish my piece on the company. 5 minutes there I was ready to punch a few of the dancers in the face...I'm awful, I know.

Sometimes I wish I wasn't such a people pleaser or that I didn't always look for the best in people or that I didn't trust people so easily...but I am...that's who I have been designed to be.

After time and time again of not being able to please everyone, being disappointed in others choices...the reasons are endless...I STILL DON'T CHANGE MY EXPECTATIONS.
Why? Why do I desire to constantly fix every broken relationship I have walked through...EVEN IF IT WAS UNHEALTHY? Ex boyfriends, friends who have hurt me deeply, wounds that are STILL being healed? Why do I insist on becoming everyone's best friend? Why do I obsess over making sure your heart is pleased?

When I brought these questions up tonight in our car ride to the church...my patient husband (after I ranted for 30 minutes) so flawlessly and efortlessly said  "We were created for unity."
Why didn't I think of that...
Our creator designed us to crave the good, crave the perfect, crave the beautiful. Why? Because it's who He is! Of course we wan't to fix things, we know they're broken. We see the flaws and we don't find joy in those. Knowing that doesn't make it easier when we get hurt...but it does give us hope. One day we will live in unity. One day every knee will bow and there will be NO more tears.

Until then, I will be the person who will stalk you on facebook...comment on every other status and every other picture. Be over joyed when you tell me the littlest thing. Cry why someone unintentionally hurts my feelings. Text and call you even if I don't particularly like you at that moment. Smile even if I want to cry. Pray even if I don't feel like it. And worship even in the storm.

I love you. More than you know. I do wish the best for you...even if I hate you right now...i'll get over it and I will forgive you...because God is making a new creation..and I don't want to miss it.

Wednesday, October 12, 2011

Life

Last night as I sat watching my baby brother sing in his "last, first concert" of his high school career I couldn't hold back tears. Joyful tears, proud tears, grieving tears, growing tears...they came in waves. Now before you start rolling your eyes at the drama, hear my heart. Life is incredibly time consuming, and an incredible time stealer. It felt like just yesterday I was the one rushing like a mad woman to get dressed, dashing out the door and into the choir room for MY last, first choir concert...nope that was not yesterday, that was 5 YEARS AGO!? How did this happen? How did I miss so much time?

I love how the Lord speaks. So subtle but yet so loud. He reminded me, gently, where I had been during the lost time. Wrapped up in some silly boy. Consumed at some ridiculous party. So selfishly unaware that soon my little brothers would be men. Yes, it felt like a ton of bricks came flying through my heart and dropping pieces into my gut. But as I sat there the Lord, in all His goodness, handed me more time. Time to draw closer to Him. Time to thank my mom for her patience and deep love for me when I slammed doors in her face and called her all sorts of names. Time to love on my dad for all the wisdom he poured into me, even when I refused to hear it. Time to watch my brothers peruse their dreams through the gifts granted to them. Time to bask in the gift of marriage, with an amazing husband who loves me and serves me and prays over me. Time to rejoice in the lives of friends and grieve alongside them when needed. Time to encourage and lift up, mentor and guide. Time to preach and teach. Time to live the life God has created and ordained for me. I don't want to miss it. I don't want a second to go by that I wasn't aware of.

James 4:13-17 says "what is your life? For you are a mist that appears for a little while, then vanishes"

Don't let life pass you by. Don't miss anymore blessings or opportunities. Dont miss out on GOD. He is jealous for you.

Tuesday, October 4, 2011

Love

Sometimes I have to remember why I love.


This weekend/week has had some hurt intertwined with my life. Things people have said, things people have done, hurt..and the hurt ran deep...unleashed my insecurities, stolen my joy, allowed anger to overtake my thoughts. A bunch of nastiness. So, naturally, I want to throw my hands up in the air, stop loving them, stop investing my time and energy into them OR yell at them, hurt them for hurting me. Why? Because "hurt people, hurt people." But as I think these thoughts the Lord gently reminds me why I love...I love because God is love...when I love, God moves in and through me. When I love, I become so close to God's heart I can feel it beating.


One of my favorite scriptures comes from Romans 12:9  
"Love from the center of who you are; don't fake it. Run for dear life from evil; hold on for dear life to good. Be good friends who love deeply" 


It's what I have been called to do, what I have been created for...to love and to LOVE DEEPLY. He doesn't ask me to love only when it's easy, or only when I feel like it...but to love deeply, from the center of my very being. So yes, sometimes "love hurts"...God TOO is pained when we turn our backs, when we lay Him aside...and yet He chose to love us, to give His son up for us while we were still sinners, hateful, spiteful, two-faced.


This is why I can love. 


He reminds me "If the world hates you, keep in mind that it hated me first." John 15:18


I love because God loves me. I love because I want to be close to Him. I love because He teaches me how. God is love, and that reason alone is why I love.  When I am hurt DEEPLY, I must love DEEPER.