Life

Last night as I sat watching my baby brother sing in his "last, first concert" of his high school career I couldn't hold back tears. Joyful tears, proud tears, grieving tears, growing tears...they came in waves. Now before you start rolling your eyes at the drama, hear my heart. Life is incredibly time consuming, and an incredible time stealer. It felt like just yesterday I was the one rushing like a mad woman to get dressed, dashing out the door and into the choir room for MY last, first choir concert...nope that was not yesterday, that was 5 YEARS AGO!? How did this happen? How did I miss so much time?

I love how the Lord speaks. So subtle but yet so loud. He reminded me, gently, where I had been during the lost time. Wrapped up in some silly boy. Consumed at some ridiculous party. So selfishly unaware that soon my little brothers would be men. Yes, it felt like a ton of bricks came flying through my heart and dropping pieces into my gut. But as I sat there the Lord, in all His goodness, handed me more time. Time to draw closer to Him. Time to thank my mom for her patience and deep love for me when I slammed doors in her face and called her all sorts of names. Time to love on my dad for all the wisdom he poured into me, even when I refused to hear it. Time to watch my brothers peruse their dreams through the gifts granted to them. Time to bask in the gift of marriage, with an amazing husband who loves me and serves me and prays over me. Time to rejoice in the lives of friends and grieve alongside them when needed. Time to encourage and lift up, mentor and guide. Time to preach and teach. Time to live the life God has created and ordained for me. I don't want to miss it. I don't want a second to go by that I wasn't aware of.

James 4:13-17 says "what is your life? For you are a mist that appears for a little while, then vanishes"

Don't let life pass you by. Don't miss anymore blessings or opportunities. Dont miss out on GOD. He is jealous for you.